An Unconventional Love (The Swap Ordeal)

We didn't speak of it for months, but my heart had changed.

I needed excitement.

It was a requirement, just as important as air and water.

I also needed to love my husband, but I lusted for someone new.

I don't get it.

You felt ashamed, but you did it again?

Well, I've started to kind of see the shame as a turn on.

You know, it's hot because it's wrong.

What?

I understand.

I-- I totally understand.

Mm-hmm.

There are things that you, like--

Live through to understand?

Mm-hmm.

Yeah.

I mean, you're not judging me or thinking any less of me,

are you?

It's not my secret, and it's not my place to judge it.

I-- besides, I have my own secrets.

I had sex with Chad.

And I've been trying for over a year to make it all right,

but India, it's not all right.

It's like you have this dirty thought, and it's appalling,

but you get off to it, and it makes it less appalling.

And then the thought comes again and again,

and pretty soon, it's like this dirty fantasy that you have.

And then it just keeps going and going,

and it turns into, like, an obsession.

But still, you never think that it's going to go anywhere,

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